Couple's Corner! Only one time!

I only had one time that I felt sooo sad and angry maybe not with him but with the situation that time! I don't remember the details but I still can picture out what had happen and what made me feel so upset!

I am the silent type when I feel bad. I'm not the nagger type:) So, strange because I talk so much, almost everything and whatever. But when I keep silent, it means I don't feel good! They'll say I'm not in the mood! hahah. Good sign huh! So, it was what happen. I felt sad and depressed that time for all the adjustments I was trying to handle and I wanted my husband to see it and be sensitive enough but unfortunately he's so insensitive but I knew it already, that knowledge of him being insensitive adds my sadness that time.

He didn't knew that I was already in my lowest time because he was so focused on his computer game, I felt so sad and helpless, so I put my self into the thub full of warm water and cry...sobbing.., still he didn't notice! Until I shouted out loud, finally he noticed. But it got worse when he came up to me. He asked me what happened, I didn't say anything because I was on a hard cry. Still he kept asking, that I have to tell him if he had done something wrong or what I felt. So, even crying i told him what I felt and that he never noticed it because he was so busy playing. He told me something in a calm voice but hurt me more. He said; "and so you are trying to control me and change me into something I'm not? Is that what you want" My God! really I never expect my message will arrive on him that way! So, I never talk to him again. Better not to say at all than misunderstood, I thought! I went out from the bath thub and dressed up and went out on a cold winter night just walked and crying. But I text him not to worry, just want to be alone!

Thats the time I started not to tell him whatever sad or bad feeling I had or I will have. I chose to keep silent than to be right from then on! And this attitude of mine now makes him feel bad everytime! Its so seldom I get upset on him anyway because he's the good type of person and most of the time its just tolerable. So, better heal it in one hour than misunderstood.

When I asked him, if he get very angry with me on our almost 5years now..., he said, not at all. Just feel not good when he knew there's going on in me but I don't tell him what! But I assured him that if I'm like that, just let me be and it will just go away so fast! Hmm... that's all thank you! hahahah. Well, I'm not telling that this is right or good, my husband even told me, beg me, to tell him whenever I feel something! hmmm okey, I'm workin' on it! hehe! Happy CC every one!